Thursday, March 24, 2005
I have something new to put here! A new work of sorts! The ending is crap, but the inspiration was damn shoujo-ai....gah....
Anyway, here it is!
Frustration
A gnawing deep within, fires burning and slashing at my very soul.
I grind my teeth in soulless agony, shut my eyes while mired in hellish depths.
I reach out, grasping, flailing. Desperate for release, yet finding none.
So close, yet so far. What I desire lies clearly within reach, yet a clear wall separates us.
I howl in the furthest reaches of my soul, for no torture is crueler than placing your one desire within reach, yet completely unreachable at the same time.
My eyes, sunken hollows, burn with unholy fire as I track my prey. Stalking, trailing, yet forever unable to pounce.
Desperation seethed in my soul. Why this? Why me? Why do I have to be subject to such a cruel fate? My one desire truly denied.
And yet, it is a twisted longing. Forbidden, unnatural, perverse.
But yet isn't forbidden fruit the most tempting? It happened in the beginning of time itself, and it has happened again and again and again…
To tell the truth, I’m afraid. I fear to reach out. I fear the inevitable rejection. I fear the stigma…
And so I hunger in silence, my thirst never slaked. Languishing in deepest bondage, unable to be free…and yet, with no regrets.
Frustration…cleanses the mind, the soul. It clears away all things, leaving only the objective. It is a cruel agony, but endurable.
I will hold fast. Though this terrible frustration do gnaw away at my spirit, I will survive.
Look! There she is!
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Yes, I know. Very damn yuri. Ambiguous until that last part though. It could have meant anything....but after that last line.....lolz.
Some few people will recognise the significance. Most will not. (Thank God!)
But actually this isn't really that serious. If it were really serious, the descriptions would have been more vivid and vibrant. Hehe. I was just feeling the aftereffects of reading Seras/Integra fics. Also reading Buffy/Faith pairings don't help. What made it really bad was the fact that the whole Eclair/Lumiere scene on tv last night was highly disturbing.
Isn't it strange how Erika absolutely adores yaoi, while I'm head over heels for yuri. Scary, but true. We sure are a twisted pair of friends. Ah well, wackiness loves company.
Anyway, signing off for now. I'm hungwie... *lower lip trembles*
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Anyway, here it is!
Frustration
A gnawing deep within, fires burning and slashing at my very soul.
I grind my teeth in soulless agony, shut my eyes while mired in hellish depths.
I reach out, grasping, flailing. Desperate for release, yet finding none.
So close, yet so far. What I desire lies clearly within reach, yet a clear wall separates us.
I howl in the furthest reaches of my soul, for no torture is crueler than placing your one desire within reach, yet completely unreachable at the same time.
My eyes, sunken hollows, burn with unholy fire as I track my prey. Stalking, trailing, yet forever unable to pounce.
Desperation seethed in my soul. Why this? Why me? Why do I have to be subject to such a cruel fate? My one desire truly denied.
And yet, it is a twisted longing. Forbidden, unnatural, perverse.
But yet isn't forbidden fruit the most tempting? It happened in the beginning of time itself, and it has happened again and again and again…
To tell the truth, I’m afraid. I fear to reach out. I fear the inevitable rejection. I fear the stigma…
And so I hunger in silence, my thirst never slaked. Languishing in deepest bondage, unable to be free…and yet, with no regrets.
Frustration…cleanses the mind, the soul. It clears away all things, leaving only the objective. It is a cruel agony, but endurable.
I will hold fast. Though this terrible frustration do gnaw away at my spirit, I will survive.
Look! There she is!
================================================================
Yes, I know. Very damn yuri. Ambiguous until that last part though. It could have meant anything....but after that last line.....lolz.
Some few people will recognise the significance. Most will not. (Thank God!)
But actually this isn't really that serious. If it were really serious, the descriptions would have been more vivid and vibrant. Hehe. I was just feeling the aftereffects of reading Seras/Integra fics. Also reading Buffy/Faith pairings don't help. What made it really bad was the fact that the whole Eclair/Lumiere scene on tv last night was highly disturbing.
Isn't it strange how Erika absolutely adores yaoi, while I'm head over heels for yuri. Scary, but true. We sure are a twisted pair of friends. Ah well, wackiness loves company.
Anyway, signing off for now. I'm hungwie... *lower lip trembles*
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Aha!
Actually, I have no idea what or why I'm "aha"ing. It was just as usual, totally random.
I'm looking at Sinfest again! Hahah! That's the most irreverent, comical, and interesting comic strip I've ever seen! Well, one of them anyway....
Ok...a bug on the Adventurer's Inn? I can't put on my helmet after I took it off....O___o
Ok...now I can put it on...provided I put on my original helmet and not the new one I found....lol.
*blink* There's a brothel in the game?! *exits brothel immediately* That was so wrong...
Alright....I think I'm lost...
.........what's new and different huh?
It's pretty laggy....hate this....ah well it's better than nothing...
Meh I'm getting hungry. Will go soon...eventually...actually I've no idea. ^__^
Erm...I'm running out of things to type.....not that I had anything to type in the first place.
Oh I got 13 points for my O Level. Not too bad, but too good either. Disappointing eh?
Alright, I'm getting too blase about this. Excuse me while I go have a chat with myself.
See you around!
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Actually, I have no idea what or why I'm "aha"ing. It was just as usual, totally random.
I'm looking at Sinfest again! Hahah! That's the most irreverent, comical, and interesting comic strip I've ever seen! Well, one of them anyway....
Ok...a bug on the Adventurer's Inn? I can't put on my helmet after I took it off....O___o
Ok...now I can put it on...provided I put on my original helmet and not the new one I found....lol.
*blink* There's a brothel in the game?! *exits brothel immediately* That was so wrong...
Alright....I think I'm lost...
.........what's new and different huh?
It's pretty laggy....hate this....ah well it's better than nothing...
Meh I'm getting hungry. Will go soon...eventually...actually I've no idea. ^__^
Erm...I'm running out of things to type.....not that I had anything to type in the first place.
Oh I got 13 points for my O Level. Not too bad, but too good either. Disappointing eh?
Alright, I'm getting too blase about this. Excuse me while I go have a chat with myself.
See you around!
