Thursday, May 18, 2006
A dream, yet so unlike a dream.
A figure, a fuzzy outline. So very far away, and yet so dangerously close.
Soft fingers reach out to caress a silky soft cheek, and she smiles, faint on faint.
Fingers entwined in gentle embrace, mimicking the actions of body and soul.
Soft sighs on velvet night, heated whispers echoing in iridscent silence.
"You're beautiful," she sighs, stroking your hair as she comes closer.
"So are you," you reply, shifting into her warm embrace. "Let's stay like this forever."
"What if I have to leave?" Her voice is playful, her warm breath tickling of your neck.
You freeze in her arms, and she notices, tightening her arms around your soft form.
"Don't worry, I won't leave. I won't ever leave you." She speaks soothingly, cradling you in a protective embrace.
You sigh and close your eyes, leaning against her. "You don't know that. You can't." Your voice is pained, resigned.
She breathes out gently, and you sense her pain. Reaching out, you return her protective hold, determined to shield her at all costs. Even from her own pain.
She glances down, their eyes meet. Raw pain, naked fear...and an unflinching trust? A long silence, and then a slow smile on your face, soon followed by a radiant one on hers.
"We can get through this," your voice is firm and unwavering, but also soft and soothing. She looks at you for a moment, before a genuine smile once again grips that beautiful face.
"Thank you." She leans forward, you arch upwards, and then...
...nothing. You wake up in your own bed, shivering and panting slightly. You look around, searching for something, anything. You find none, nothing that you were searching for.
Suddenly the bed seems cold, and far too empty. You hug your arms close to your body, trying to remember the warmth in the dream. Vainly, you search in a wild frenzy through your mind, desperate to find that elusive face from your dream. Yet it eludes you, always lingering just out of reach, always partially out of sight. You touch a warm smile here, and twinkling eyes there, but never seeing fully the angel that balanced your very heart in between her delicate hands.
"I love you," a beautiful, familiar voice rings at the edge of your consciousness. You shiver, digging your fingers deeper into your arms. Unbidden, silent tears course down your face, and a helpless moan escapes slightly parted lips. It was all too much, knowing that somewhere, someone, some time ago, you loved and were loved, but now you couldn't even find that who haunts your dreams.
"Help..." you whisper into the uncaring night, letting your plea be carried away on the cool breeze, hoping, desperately, that it might find your dream lover, that she would hear and come to you, and hold you once again like she always did, chasing away the fears and pain.
It was hopeless of course, that much you knew. There was no way she could hear, and no way for her to come to you right now. There wasn't even any proof of her ever having existed, except in the hollow vaults of your stricken mind. The truth strikes deep in the center of your soul, and the tears come faster. Blood streams down from the ragged wounds gouged open by your hooked fingers, but you barely notice the pain, lost as you were in a sea of it already.
Somewhere out there, a girl sits up, an aching void in her center, as if she were missing something. Something important...and what were these tears doing, running freely down her face? She gasps suddenly as she hears a near-silent plea for help, and her heart wrung itself out at the raw need and vulnerability in that plaintive voice. Clutching at her chest, she stumbles to the window, looking out into the night. Her eyes scanned the view, searching desperately, for what she did not know. Only that it was important, and it wasn't with her as it should be. Something precious......more than anything else in the world. Why couldn't she find it? That longing in her heart was driving her crazy, and the tears that came now were her own, of frustration and desperation.
They wept, past, present and future. Separated as they were, they could not be whole. And so they cried out to each other, hearing yet not finding, that which bound them together not enough to bring them together. And it drove them mad, knowing the other was there but never able to find them.
Would they ever find each other? Only time would tell...
Ok so I'm being evil. So sue me. Drabble-ish? You bet. Angst? You got it. Romance? Spades and spades of it...all unresolved though. Heh. I'm cruel that way.
Was thinking about Minako and Rei for some reason when I did that. I would never do that to Haruka and Michiru, love them too much to do that to them. Heh. I've got a fucked up mind.
Well...it was fun writing it. Nightmares...get them all the time. Never so intense though. Lucky me. Not so lucky them. I would feel pity, but I don't, because I'm not them.
Or is it really? Who knows? Do you?
But you can't, and neither can I. Heh.
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A figure, a fuzzy outline. So very far away, and yet so dangerously close.
Soft fingers reach out to caress a silky soft cheek, and she smiles, faint on faint.
Fingers entwined in gentle embrace, mimicking the actions of body and soul.
Soft sighs on velvet night, heated whispers echoing in iridscent silence.
"You're beautiful," she sighs, stroking your hair as she comes closer.
"So are you," you reply, shifting into her warm embrace. "Let's stay like this forever."
"What if I have to leave?" Her voice is playful, her warm breath tickling of your neck.
You freeze in her arms, and she notices, tightening her arms around your soft form.
"Don't worry, I won't leave. I won't ever leave you." She speaks soothingly, cradling you in a protective embrace.
You sigh and close your eyes, leaning against her. "You don't know that. You can't." Your voice is pained, resigned.
She breathes out gently, and you sense her pain. Reaching out, you return her protective hold, determined to shield her at all costs. Even from her own pain.
She glances down, their eyes meet. Raw pain, naked fear...and an unflinching trust? A long silence, and then a slow smile on your face, soon followed by a radiant one on hers.
"We can get through this," your voice is firm and unwavering, but also soft and soothing. She looks at you for a moment, before a genuine smile once again grips that beautiful face.
"Thank you." She leans forward, you arch upwards, and then...
...nothing. You wake up in your own bed, shivering and panting slightly. You look around, searching for something, anything. You find none, nothing that you were searching for.
Suddenly the bed seems cold, and far too empty. You hug your arms close to your body, trying to remember the warmth in the dream. Vainly, you search in a wild frenzy through your mind, desperate to find that elusive face from your dream. Yet it eludes you, always lingering just out of reach, always partially out of sight. You touch a warm smile here, and twinkling eyes there, but never seeing fully the angel that balanced your very heart in between her delicate hands.
"I love you," a beautiful, familiar voice rings at the edge of your consciousness. You shiver, digging your fingers deeper into your arms. Unbidden, silent tears course down your face, and a helpless moan escapes slightly parted lips. It was all too much, knowing that somewhere, someone, some time ago, you loved and were loved, but now you couldn't even find that who haunts your dreams.
"Help..." you whisper into the uncaring night, letting your plea be carried away on the cool breeze, hoping, desperately, that it might find your dream lover, that she would hear and come to you, and hold you once again like she always did, chasing away the fears and pain.
It was hopeless of course, that much you knew. There was no way she could hear, and no way for her to come to you right now. There wasn't even any proof of her ever having existed, except in the hollow vaults of your stricken mind. The truth strikes deep in the center of your soul, and the tears come faster. Blood streams down from the ragged wounds gouged open by your hooked fingers, but you barely notice the pain, lost as you were in a sea of it already.
Somewhere out there, a girl sits up, an aching void in her center, as if she were missing something. Something important...and what were these tears doing, running freely down her face? She gasps suddenly as she hears a near-silent plea for help, and her heart wrung itself out at the raw need and vulnerability in that plaintive voice. Clutching at her chest, she stumbles to the window, looking out into the night. Her eyes scanned the view, searching desperately, for what she did not know. Only that it was important, and it wasn't with her as it should be. Something precious......more than anything else in the world. Why couldn't she find it? That longing in her heart was driving her crazy, and the tears that came now were her own, of frustration and desperation.
They wept, past, present and future. Separated as they were, they could not be whole. And so they cried out to each other, hearing yet not finding, that which bound them together not enough to bring them together. And it drove them mad, knowing the other was there but never able to find them.
Would they ever find each other? Only time would tell...
Ok so I'm being evil. So sue me. Drabble-ish? You bet. Angst? You got it. Romance? Spades and spades of it...all unresolved though. Heh. I'm cruel that way.
Was thinking about Minako and Rei for some reason when I did that. I would never do that to Haruka and Michiru, love them too much to do that to them. Heh. I've got a fucked up mind.
Well...it was fun writing it. Nightmares...get them all the time. Never so intense though. Lucky me. Not so lucky them. I would feel pity, but I don't, because I'm not them.
Or is it really? Who knows? Do you?
But you can't, and neither can I. Heh.
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