Saturday, July 29, 2006
*glances up at tagboard*
Hmm.
I seem to be channelling something I thought I lost. Evil Estrea returns.
And I love the Shizuru start. Hmm, I wonder if the subsequent speech was worthy of Fujino-kaichou.
It probably didn't help that I was feeling vindictive when I saw that tag though. Still, I could have been more vicious in my reply really. The Estrea 3 years ago would have dismantled the person down into their component parts without even raising her voice, while smiling a Fujino-esque smile. I've actually mellowed. Amazing.
Glad to know I haven't completely lost my touch, however. It would be truly distressing if that were so.
I suddenly wish I had a random, unknown person that I can just destroy verbally right now. With good reason. Because I can't actually do that with real people that I have to associate with on a semi-regular basis. Pity.
It feels strange. Odd. I feel stronger. More detached. Is that how Xellos feels?
*random iced drink pops in hand*
Or maybe Akio. It would certainly be fitting. Especially after that entry in my private journals. I am in control. I can crush others if I choose to. It feels good to not be vulnerable.
I feel no sympathy for them. Just a morbid fascination. Like gazing at a train wreck, unable to look away. A train wreck I helped cause. A train wreck I happen to be in.
Layers. Everyone has them. Don't you know?
Cheers.
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Hmm.
I seem to be channelling something I thought I lost. Evil Estrea returns.
And I love the Shizuru start. Hmm, I wonder if the subsequent speech was worthy of Fujino-kaichou.
It probably didn't help that I was feeling vindictive when I saw that tag though. Still, I could have been more vicious in my reply really. The Estrea 3 years ago would have dismantled the person down into their component parts without even raising her voice, while smiling a Fujino-esque smile. I've actually mellowed. Amazing.
Glad to know I haven't completely lost my touch, however. It would be truly distressing if that were so.
I suddenly wish I had a random, unknown person that I can just destroy verbally right now. With good reason. Because I can't actually do that with real people that I have to associate with on a semi-regular basis. Pity.
It feels strange. Odd. I feel stronger. More detached. Is that how Xellos feels?
*random iced drink pops in hand*
Or maybe Akio. It would certainly be fitting. Especially after that entry in my private journals. I am in control. I can crush others if I choose to. It feels good to not be vulnerable.
I feel no sympathy for them. Just a morbid fascination. Like gazing at a train wreck, unable to look away. A train wreck I helped cause. A train wreck I happen to be in.
Layers. Everyone has them. Don't you know?
Cheers.
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