Thursday, July 06, 2006
I would like to apologise for the bitchy attitude of the last post. I wasn't feeling like myself at that time.
Ok now that that's out of the way, here's my rant for today. XD
Omgosh I love Venus. Yes, I'm a sad, pathetic, lame person. And yes, I'm 18 and really shouldn't be obsessing over Sailor Moon anymore. But the same can be said of anyone who's obsessed over ANY comic book character (yes you, all those Batman/Superman/Spiderman/etc fans over the age of 20).
But one can argue that those heroes are relevant and still "popular". Oh and Sailor Moon is passe eh? *cough* Ok, maybe so. But who cares? It's relevant to me. That's all that really matters isn't it?
Before you roll your eyes at me (or already are doing I suppose), I must state that my obsession with BSSM is just one of those inexplicable things in life. You can't really explain it. It might be the fact that I'm completely obsessed with shoujo-ai, which is why I like the series so much (yay for Haruka and Michiru! and no, they are NOT cousins. :P).
And what can I say, PGSM just reinforces the fact that Rei and Minako are so kawaii together (they angst so well! not the point but what the heck anyway). Gyaahahahahha. Right. Someone stop me now.
Gwah! Everybody should read Sailor Doc's Rei/Minako fanfic Echoes of a Distant Demon. My god. It's the best. The best PGSM fic I've seen so far. Oh the angst. Oh the fluff. Oh the sheer artistry. And yes, it's completely bueatiful. Not only the pairing, but the style of writing, the flowing words, the sheer poetry of the lines...ok someone really has to whack me out of this now.
And I remember lotsa quotable quotes from it. Heh. It's fun. And I can picture the scenes actually happening sometimes. My god. The way Venus/Minako whispers "Mars...". Omgosh. I get full body shivers just thinking of it. Never mind.
Here are some memorable quotes and scenes though. I actually memorised some of them. x__x
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"I love you, Reiko," she whispered, afraid to speak louder and break the shell of this quiet space.
"No more than I love you back," her partner replied, a teasing petulance in her tone as she had gazed into her eyes. Touching their foreheads together she had continued with a soft smile, the low alto of that voice sending shivers down her spine. "I will always love you..."
"...my Mina..."
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"I said, let her go," she repeated. "I will not say it again."
(this is when Minako is held hostage by someone...the full scene is too long...but Rei was great. My gosh. The way she says that line...)
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"Is there anything I can do to help you feel better? Ami still feels really bad, and Makoto sent you some fresh, homemade chicken soup."
"I just need one thing," Rei said, clearing her throat a bit.
"What's that?" she asked.
"You," the dark haired senshi replied as she gently pulled her partner onto her lap, and cuddled closer to enjoy their shared body warmth.
(kawaii ne? XD oh and this is a flashback...Ami had just turned Rei into a huge iceblock during a practice battle...lol...)
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"She did it because she loves you," he said simply.
"That's not true, Artemis!" she blurted out angrily. "Reiko loved me! She loved me, and I watched her die because of it! But this girl? This girl doesn't even like me! This girl..."
"Is still as much your Reiko as you are still eternally her Mina."
(yes this is THE line that made my heart shift into overdrive)
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'You can't have her... I won't let you!' she'd seethed as she pounded down the sidewalk, the stadium drawing ever closer. 'How dare you try to take her away... to touch her... to harm her... she belongs to me!'
(oh yes, the protective possessiveness. and this isn't the last we see of this side of her too XD)
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Unable to concentrate, she leaned her head wearily against the strength of the tree. "I just can't deal with this right now," she groaned. "I need time to think!"
"So..." came the quiet, yet oh, so familiar voice. "Is this a bad time then?"
Nearly coming out of her skin, Rei turned around so fast she almost fell, except for her quick grip on the solid strength of the old tree.
"Minako?" she asked though suddenly dry lips. "What are you doing here?"
(hehe cute eh? I just love Minako for being able to surprise Rei all the time. XD)
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Smiling, despite her pain, Rei pressed a reassuring kiss against the top of her lover's head. "I'll always come home with you, Mina," she said. "Sometimes, it may take me a bit longer to get there than you may like," she added with a gentle smile, "but, I promise you... wherever you are is my home, and at the end of all my days, I will be with you.
Always."
(I'm crying, I'm crying...my heart's crying...waaaah!! and yes, this is one of the scenes permanently stuck in my head)
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"That still doesn't really answer the question!" Rei insisted. "Why take such risks? Alone? We may not have been as strong or as experienced, but we could have helped you!" Shaking her head, Rei continued. "All those risks you took! Pretending to be the Princess! Luring the Generals out in open confrontation! Inviting endless attacks from youma! What were you thinking, Minako? Were you out of your mind?"
"No. I was dying."
(another one of my favorite scenes. I can just see Minako saying that in that matter-of-fact way of hers...*sniff*)
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"No, Rei," she said with infinite patience as she turned to face her. "I don't just ‘love you.’ I'm in love with you!" she said, looking directly into those beautiful, dark-brown eyes. "I think I always have been," she added with a soft smile.
Rei, to her credit, didn't panic. The moment she had secretly anticipated had come, just as she had hoped and feared it would, and here she was. All alone in what some people would consider a romantic setting, with one of the most beloved and beautiful young women on the entire planet. The only other person she had ever met who could make her own modest world tilt on its axis with a single word, and she had just told her she loved her, no! Was in love with her.
What to say, what to say?
"I know."
(Anticlimatic much, Rei? I mean, seriously. *dies laughing*)
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Clearing her throat, Minako stood and straightened to her full height before turning to face her. "I know you need time Rei, and I swear I'll give you all the time and space you need! I promise you! But I... I..." she paused and swallowed loudly. "I want you with me this time. Please! Help me get through it! I need you, Rei."
Rei studied her as she stood there, and took the measure of the person she was. She was strong, she was proud, she was a leader and she possessed a brilliant mind and a beautiful, giving, heart. But now she was wounded in both body and spirit, and she was asking for her help. How could she say no? She had never been able to deny her anything anyway, and she knew it, so why start now?
...I'll always come home with you, Mina...
"Whatever you need," Rei said, walking forward slowly. "Whatever you want," she said, coming to a stop in front of her. "I'll be there for you," she promised, as she looked into her eyes. "Just ask."
...Sometimes it may take me a bit longer to get there than you may like...
Secretly cursing her damnably fragile emotional state, Minako couldn't stop the trembling that started to shake her slight frame as Rei stood there with her, and her eyes dropped to the ground as she fought with herself for control.
"You do remember me saying that to you today, right?" Rei asked.
Minako nodded her head.
As if reaching out to hold a bird, Rei gently cupped Minako's chin, lifting her eyes to meet her own. "I do need time, Minako. I don't know how much, but I do know this," she said, reaching forward and deliberately taking her hands. "I want to try." Looking up from their hands through that thick, dark fall of bangs, she smiled gently as she squeezed the delicate fingers she held in her own work-worn hands. "I do want to try. Just be patient with me, okay?" the dark brown eyes beseeched her.
...wherever you are is my home...
Minako felt her heart constrict as she looked into that earnest face. "Okay," was all she could manage, a blush she made no attempt to hide coloring her cheeks.
Rei smiled. "So," she said, tucking one small hand into the crook of her arm. "It's getting late. Don't you think we should go home now?"
(yes, I'm near tears now. I can't imagine how difficult it must have been for Minako to make herself that vulnerable to Rei. I know I can't do that with anyone. It takes a lot of trust and courage...something I don't have....but still, this scene is so sweet...)
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Radiant.
No other word that came to mind could better describe the beauty that lay beside her now.
And Mars was awed by the magnitude of the blessing that was her Venus.
Here, in the dimly lit stillness of their private chambers, she seemed to glow from within, a warm golden light that bathed her form in waves of light that gently washed over her, and illuminated the very texture of her skin, her hair and eyes.
In silent reverence, Mars watched over her as she slowly began to awaken. First, the gentle frown that signified her reluctant rise to consciousness, and then the eyes, which opened slowly, as if under protest, until they finally focused on her.
And then she smiled, and the early morning light paled in comparison.
(yes its a flashback. Wow, I mean wow. Sigh...lucky Mars...)
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"Hi... Hino-sama!"
Yumi was spellbound, her awestruck eyes riveted to the dark priestess as if seeing the true meaning of life, the Easter Bunny, and Santa Claus, all rolled into one.
"No, please!" Rei insisted, more than a bit embarrassed. "Rei will be just fine."
The girl blushed a bright red, and then said shyly, "O... okay, Rei-sama!"
(ROFLOL. Yumi is Minako's assistant. Since she worships Minako, and Rei saved Minako's life...hehe...)
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"She looks like she never even went to bed."
Never taking his eyes off his paws he said, "She didn't."
"What?" Rei said, turning sharply to look at the guardian cat, her voice dropping an octave as she demanded an explanation.
Cutting his eyes nervously toward the still open door, Artemis said, "She'd kill me if I told you the truth!"
Leaning forward so that her face was inches away from his, Rei solemnly promised, "I'll kill you if you don't."
(XD)
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Her eyes grew dark. She'd known he only wanted to help, but something deep inside of her had flared to life as she watched him approach, and she had made up her mind that she was not going to let anyone else touch Minako or attempt to separate them. Protectiveness? Possessiveness? Both? In retrospect, she could admit it was both, but at the time, all she had been sure of was that Minako's defenses had completely collapsed, and the only person she trusted to keep her safe was Mars.
Her Mars.
Rei had been determined to uphold that trust.
(ahhh Rei in all her protective glory. Baka! You love her and you're still dragging your feet over it! Stop torturing poor Minako-chan over it already!)
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Her arms wrapped tightly around her to help ward of the cold, Rei did her best not to make any unnecessary noise as she moved closer to the bed. Minako was laying on her side facing the outside windows, and appeared to be sound asleep. Rei watched over her in silent contemplation, finding a bit of personal comfort and peace in these few, stolen moments with her friend.
'Friend?' she thought, the word seeming somehow not quite adequate to describe her relationship with this complex young woman.
'Cohort?' No, that wasn't right either. She frowned.
'Lover?' A quiet little voice whispered from the back of her mind.
'No!' Rei mentally blurted out to the little voice. 'Ah, no. That is... I mean... well... I... not yet,' she ended weakly, as she felt her teasing sub-conscious laugh merrily at her discomfort.
'Partner?' Rei thought about that one as she moved her hands rather distractedly up and down her arms. It felt close, but still... she wasn't sure it was really right yet either.
But, on the other hand she reasoned, they were partners of a sort. Partners in defeating this present danger, for sure. As for the future?
Rei sighed. Well, she could dream, couldn't she?
(Denial!!! Rei!!! Baka!!!)
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The next thing Rei became aware of was warmth. She seemed to be wrapped in a living cocoon of it, and the sensation was heavenly. Slowly coming back to wakefulness, she next became aware of the light that appeared to be present on the other side of her still comfortably closed eyelids. Reluctantly answering the call to open them, Rei blinked sleepily, tightening her arms firmly around...
'Minako!'
Heart pounding, Rei clamped down on her first reaction, which was to panic, and stared in shock at the sleeping beauty she could now see resting peacefully in the protective circle of her arms. Minako was curled up against her side, her head pressed sweetly against Rei's shoulder. One leg was resting on top of the priestess' thighs, and her left hand was laying under Rei's cropped tee shirt along her side, its fingers splayed open along the soft skin of her ribcage.
'Oh... god...' Rei thought in desperation, afraid to breath for fear she would break the spell, and fearing what the consequences would bring. When her heart finally started to slow to nearly normal limits, she took in her current predicament.
What the hell had happened?
'You fell asleep baka, that's what happened!' she berated herself. ‘Now how do you get out of this?'
But did she really want to?
Slowly starting to get use to the position she now found herself in, Rei couldn't help but marvel at how absolutely natural the situation felt.
Gone was the frigid chill from the night before, and outside dawn must just be breaking as the room was filled with a soft, golden-orange glow. Looking down at Minako's face, Rei noticed the tiny smile that graced her lips, and was amazed at the soft, golden perfection of her skin. It seemed almost to glow in the faint light of the morning...
Suddenly, Rei sucked in an involuntary breath, as without warning, memory after memory began to wash over her mind in happy, blissful abandon.
Minako smiling at her. Minako laughing at some silly something she had said. Minako pouting, her eyes beseeching her for some small favor or other. Minako's eyes raking over her in longing. Minako's head thrown back, her body arching into her own at the very height of passion. Minako's face, showing all the love and devotion she would ever need in this life or any other...
The next thing Rei became aware of was fingers beginning to softly caress her side, just before they moved up onto her tummy. Shaking her head to help clear it, Rei looked down to see the well remembered signs of her partner’s rise to wakefulness.
First, there was the gentle frown, followed in short order by the tiny crease that appeared between her delicate eyebrows and the baby yawn that always ended in a squeak. Next came the flexing and unflexing of her fingers, which would be followed by the opening of her eyes.
And there they were. Smiling up at her.
'Gods... she is so beautiful!' the priestess thought, totally enraptured by the vision in her arms.
To be honest, Rei lost all track of time as they lay together, lost as she was in the depths of Minako's eyes. Basking in the glow of each other's presence, the world outside their room just fell away, their own private world becoming all either of them needed or wanted.
(if you don't feel ANYTHING from this, you are completely insensitive.)
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"It's okay, Minako," she said, trying to calm the obviously upset young woman. "I really didn't mind, and…"
"No, it's not okay!" Minako insisted. "First, I begged you to stay with me, and then I assaulted you while you were unable to defend yourself!"
"It wasn't like that!" Rei said, a bit miffed at the implication that she had been such a defenseless victim. "I'm the one that decided to stay, after all. Nobody forced me to!"
"That's true," Minako conceded. "You stayed out of the kindness of your heart, and then I just... I..."
"You just... what?" Rei asked, burning with curiosity despite herself.
"Well, I… that is, I just…" Minako stuttered, trying the get beyond her own embarrassment. "Well, you know," she finally blurted out. "You were there too!"
Mildly amused, Rei said, "Minako, unless you remember something I don't, nothing happened."
Outraged, Minako exclaimed, "What do you mean, 'nothing happened?’ I woke up in your arms this morning, didn't I? My hand was under your shirt, and... and..."
"And nothing happened," Rei assured her with a dark grin.
"How can you be so sure!" the idol demanded.
"Think about it, Minako," the priestess insisted. "Do you actually remember anything happening beyond that?" Rei watched as Minako paused and reviewed what had happened, adding, "If it helps, the next thing I remember is you opening your eyes and smiling at me."
Slowly, Minako nodded her head. "That's the last I remember too," she confirmed. "But are you sure nothing happened before that?" she asked, still concerned.
"Yes, Minako," she promised, nodding her head firmly. "I'm positive. Nothing happened. Would you like to know why I'm so sure?" she asked solemnly.
"Yes," Minako said, needing to believe the truth of Rei's words.
"Because I'm absolutely certain there is no way in heaven or on earth that I could have made love with you last night and not remembered every single moment of it," she stated simply, reaching across the seat to take Minako's hand in hers.
(I completely concur with Rei's reasoning. There's no way in all dimensions and universes that one can make love with the child of Love and Beauty and NOT remember a single thing about it. XD)
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"Minako?"
"Hmm?" the idol said, turning her head to look at Rei.
"When you first woke up this morning, what did you feel?"
Caught off-guard, Minako hesitated. "I... I felt," she began, struggling a bit with her thoughts and emotions.
"What?" Rei asked again, curiously. Needing to know the answer.
"Complete," Minako whispered softly.
The rain that had been pounding the car stopped abruptly as they entered the parking garage, leaving an almost solid silence in its wake as the force of Minako's single word impacted on both of them.
Turning to Rei, Minako's eyes begged for answers of their own. "Did you feel anything, Rei? Anything at all?" she asked.
Faltering at the not completely unexpected question, Rei frowned and honestly thought about it.
What had she felt?
Even as she started to contemplate the jumble of emotions she had experienced when she'd first realized the situation she was in, the answer came to her without hesitation, and she felt the truth of it in her heart.
"Loved," she said simply, looking up at Minako. "For the first time since my mother died," she added. "Truly loved."
Entwining their fingers, Minako smiled as she felt the warm strength of Rei's hand holding her own in firm, yet gentle comfort. She would be alright. It no longer seemed to matter quite so much what the doctor might say or do, or what tests she may have to endure.
As long as they faced it together, she knew, in the end, she would be alright.
(...................*sobs quietly in a corner*)
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And that's it for now. Because the story still isn't finished, so I'm eagerly waiting for more.
I have some things in common with Rei. She lost her mom, but at least my dad isn't an asshole like hers is. But we aren't very close to our fathers still.
I wish one day I could say the same thing as her. "Loved. For the first time since my mother died. Truly loved." Maybe one day I can feel the same way too.
Sigh. I love this pairing. I love that particular fic because Sailor Doc is a genius at this. Never mind. Now I just sound like an idiot. Sigh.
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Ok now that that's out of the way, here's my rant for today. XD
Omgosh I love Venus. Yes, I'm a sad, pathetic, lame person. And yes, I'm 18 and really shouldn't be obsessing over Sailor Moon anymore. But the same can be said of anyone who's obsessed over ANY comic book character (yes you, all those Batman/Superman/Spiderman/etc fans over the age of 20).
But one can argue that those heroes are relevant and still "popular". Oh and Sailor Moon is passe eh? *cough* Ok, maybe so. But who cares? It's relevant to me. That's all that really matters isn't it?
Before you roll your eyes at me (or already are doing I suppose), I must state that my obsession with BSSM is just one of those inexplicable things in life. You can't really explain it. It might be the fact that I'm completely obsessed with shoujo-ai, which is why I like the series so much (yay for Haruka and Michiru! and no, they are NOT cousins. :P).
And what can I say, PGSM just reinforces the fact that Rei and Minako are so kawaii together (they angst so well! not the point but what the heck anyway). Gyaahahahahha. Right. Someone stop me now.
Gwah! Everybody should read Sailor Doc's Rei/Minako fanfic Echoes of a Distant Demon. My god. It's the best. The best PGSM fic I've seen so far. Oh the angst. Oh the fluff. Oh the sheer artistry. And yes, it's completely bueatiful. Not only the pairing, but the style of writing, the flowing words, the sheer poetry of the lines...ok someone really has to whack me out of this now.
And I remember lotsa quotable quotes from it. Heh. It's fun. And I can picture the scenes actually happening sometimes. My god. The way Venus/Minako whispers "Mars...". Omgosh. I get full body shivers just thinking of it. Never mind.
Here are some memorable quotes and scenes though. I actually memorised some of them. x__x
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"I love you, Reiko," she whispered, afraid to speak louder and break the shell of this quiet space.
"No more than I love you back," her partner replied, a teasing petulance in her tone as she had gazed into her eyes. Touching their foreheads together she had continued with a soft smile, the low alto of that voice sending shivers down her spine. "I will always love you..."
"...my Mina..."
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"I said, let her go," she repeated. "I will not say it again."
(this is when Minako is held hostage by someone...the full scene is too long...but Rei was great. My gosh. The way she says that line...)
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"Is there anything I can do to help you feel better? Ami still feels really bad, and Makoto sent you some fresh, homemade chicken soup."
"I just need one thing," Rei said, clearing her throat a bit.
"What's that?" she asked.
"You," the dark haired senshi replied as she gently pulled her partner onto her lap, and cuddled closer to enjoy their shared body warmth.
(kawaii ne? XD oh and this is a flashback...Ami had just turned Rei into a huge iceblock during a practice battle...lol...)
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"She did it because she loves you," he said simply.
"That's not true, Artemis!" she blurted out angrily. "Reiko loved me! She loved me, and I watched her die because of it! But this girl? This girl doesn't even like me! This girl..."
"Is still as much your Reiko as you are still eternally her Mina."
(yes this is THE line that made my heart shift into overdrive)
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'You can't have her... I won't let you!' she'd seethed as she pounded down the sidewalk, the stadium drawing ever closer. 'How dare you try to take her away... to touch her... to harm her... she belongs to me!'
(oh yes, the protective possessiveness. and this isn't the last we see of this side of her too XD)
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Unable to concentrate, she leaned her head wearily against the strength of the tree. "I just can't deal with this right now," she groaned. "I need time to think!"
"So..." came the quiet, yet oh, so familiar voice. "Is this a bad time then?"
Nearly coming out of her skin, Rei turned around so fast she almost fell, except for her quick grip on the solid strength of the old tree.
"Minako?" she asked though suddenly dry lips. "What are you doing here?"
(hehe cute eh? I just love Minako for being able to surprise Rei all the time. XD)
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Smiling, despite her pain, Rei pressed a reassuring kiss against the top of her lover's head. "I'll always come home with you, Mina," she said. "Sometimes, it may take me a bit longer to get there than you may like," she added with a gentle smile, "but, I promise you... wherever you are is my home, and at the end of all my days, I will be with you.
Always."
(I'm crying, I'm crying...my heart's crying...waaaah!! and yes, this is one of the scenes permanently stuck in my head)
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"That still doesn't really answer the question!" Rei insisted. "Why take such risks? Alone? We may not have been as strong or as experienced, but we could have helped you!" Shaking her head, Rei continued. "All those risks you took! Pretending to be the Princess! Luring the Generals out in open confrontation! Inviting endless attacks from youma! What were you thinking, Minako? Were you out of your mind?"
"No. I was dying."
(another one of my favorite scenes. I can just see Minako saying that in that matter-of-fact way of hers...*sniff*)
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"No, Rei," she said with infinite patience as she turned to face her. "I don't just ‘love you.’ I'm in love with you!" she said, looking directly into those beautiful, dark-brown eyes. "I think I always have been," she added with a soft smile.
Rei, to her credit, didn't panic. The moment she had secretly anticipated had come, just as she had hoped and feared it would, and here she was. All alone in what some people would consider a romantic setting, with one of the most beloved and beautiful young women on the entire planet. The only other person she had ever met who could make her own modest world tilt on its axis with a single word, and she had just told her she loved her, no! Was in love with her.
What to say, what to say?
"I know."
(Anticlimatic much, Rei? I mean, seriously. *dies laughing*)
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Clearing her throat, Minako stood and straightened to her full height before turning to face her. "I know you need time Rei, and I swear I'll give you all the time and space you need! I promise you! But I... I..." she paused and swallowed loudly. "I want you with me this time. Please! Help me get through it! I need you, Rei."
Rei studied her as she stood there, and took the measure of the person she was. She was strong, she was proud, she was a leader and she possessed a brilliant mind and a beautiful, giving, heart. But now she was wounded in both body and spirit, and she was asking for her help. How could she say no? She had never been able to deny her anything anyway, and she knew it, so why start now?
...I'll always come home with you, Mina...
"Whatever you need," Rei said, walking forward slowly. "Whatever you want," she said, coming to a stop in front of her. "I'll be there for you," she promised, as she looked into her eyes. "Just ask."
...Sometimes it may take me a bit longer to get there than you may like...
Secretly cursing her damnably fragile emotional state, Minako couldn't stop the trembling that started to shake her slight frame as Rei stood there with her, and her eyes dropped to the ground as she fought with herself for control.
"You do remember me saying that to you today, right?" Rei asked.
Minako nodded her head.
As if reaching out to hold a bird, Rei gently cupped Minako's chin, lifting her eyes to meet her own. "I do need time, Minako. I don't know how much, but I do know this," she said, reaching forward and deliberately taking her hands. "I want to try." Looking up from their hands through that thick, dark fall of bangs, she smiled gently as she squeezed the delicate fingers she held in her own work-worn hands. "I do want to try. Just be patient with me, okay?" the dark brown eyes beseeched her.
...wherever you are is my home...
Minako felt her heart constrict as she looked into that earnest face. "Okay," was all she could manage, a blush she made no attempt to hide coloring her cheeks.
Rei smiled. "So," she said, tucking one small hand into the crook of her arm. "It's getting late. Don't you think we should go home now?"
(yes, I'm near tears now. I can't imagine how difficult it must have been for Minako to make herself that vulnerable to Rei. I know I can't do that with anyone. It takes a lot of trust and courage...something I don't have....but still, this scene is so sweet...)
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Radiant.
No other word that came to mind could better describe the beauty that lay beside her now.
And Mars was awed by the magnitude of the blessing that was her Venus.
Here, in the dimly lit stillness of their private chambers, she seemed to glow from within, a warm golden light that bathed her form in waves of light that gently washed over her, and illuminated the very texture of her skin, her hair and eyes.
In silent reverence, Mars watched over her as she slowly began to awaken. First, the gentle frown that signified her reluctant rise to consciousness, and then the eyes, which opened slowly, as if under protest, until they finally focused on her.
And then she smiled, and the early morning light paled in comparison.
(yes its a flashback. Wow, I mean wow. Sigh...lucky Mars...)
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"Hi... Hino-sama!"
Yumi was spellbound, her awestruck eyes riveted to the dark priestess as if seeing the true meaning of life, the Easter Bunny, and Santa Claus, all rolled into one.
"No, please!" Rei insisted, more than a bit embarrassed. "Rei will be just fine."
The girl blushed a bright red, and then said shyly, "O... okay, Rei-sama!"
(ROFLOL. Yumi is Minako's assistant. Since she worships Minako, and Rei saved Minako's life...hehe...)
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"She looks like she never even went to bed."
Never taking his eyes off his paws he said, "She didn't."
"What?" Rei said, turning sharply to look at the guardian cat, her voice dropping an octave as she demanded an explanation.
Cutting his eyes nervously toward the still open door, Artemis said, "She'd kill me if I told you the truth!"
Leaning forward so that her face was inches away from his, Rei solemnly promised, "I'll kill you if you don't."
(XD)
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Her eyes grew dark. She'd known he only wanted to help, but something deep inside of her had flared to life as she watched him approach, and she had made up her mind that she was not going to let anyone else touch Minako or attempt to separate them. Protectiveness? Possessiveness? Both? In retrospect, she could admit it was both, but at the time, all she had been sure of was that Minako's defenses had completely collapsed, and the only person she trusted to keep her safe was Mars.
Her Mars.
Rei had been determined to uphold that trust.
(ahhh Rei in all her protective glory. Baka! You love her and you're still dragging your feet over it! Stop torturing poor Minako-chan over it already!)
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Her arms wrapped tightly around her to help ward of the cold, Rei did her best not to make any unnecessary noise as she moved closer to the bed. Minako was laying on her side facing the outside windows, and appeared to be sound asleep. Rei watched over her in silent contemplation, finding a bit of personal comfort and peace in these few, stolen moments with her friend.
'Friend?' she thought, the word seeming somehow not quite adequate to describe her relationship with this complex young woman.
'Cohort?' No, that wasn't right either. She frowned.
'Lover?' A quiet little voice whispered from the back of her mind.
'No!' Rei mentally blurted out to the little voice. 'Ah, no. That is... I mean... well... I... not yet,' she ended weakly, as she felt her teasing sub-conscious laugh merrily at her discomfort.
'Partner?' Rei thought about that one as she moved her hands rather distractedly up and down her arms. It felt close, but still... she wasn't sure it was really right yet either.
But, on the other hand she reasoned, they were partners of a sort. Partners in defeating this present danger, for sure. As for the future?
Rei sighed. Well, she could dream, couldn't she?
(Denial!!! Rei!!! Baka!!!)
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The next thing Rei became aware of was warmth. She seemed to be wrapped in a living cocoon of it, and the sensation was heavenly. Slowly coming back to wakefulness, she next became aware of the light that appeared to be present on the other side of her still comfortably closed eyelids. Reluctantly answering the call to open them, Rei blinked sleepily, tightening her arms firmly around...
'Minako!'
Heart pounding, Rei clamped down on her first reaction, which was to panic, and stared in shock at the sleeping beauty she could now see resting peacefully in the protective circle of her arms. Minako was curled up against her side, her head pressed sweetly against Rei's shoulder. One leg was resting on top of the priestess' thighs, and her left hand was laying under Rei's cropped tee shirt along her side, its fingers splayed open along the soft skin of her ribcage.
'Oh... god...' Rei thought in desperation, afraid to breath for fear she would break the spell, and fearing what the consequences would bring. When her heart finally started to slow to nearly normal limits, she took in her current predicament.
What the hell had happened?
'You fell asleep baka, that's what happened!' she berated herself. ‘Now how do you get out of this?'
But did she really want to?
Slowly starting to get use to the position she now found herself in, Rei couldn't help but marvel at how absolutely natural the situation felt.
Gone was the frigid chill from the night before, and outside dawn must just be breaking as the room was filled with a soft, golden-orange glow. Looking down at Minako's face, Rei noticed the tiny smile that graced her lips, and was amazed at the soft, golden perfection of her skin. It seemed almost to glow in the faint light of the morning...
Suddenly, Rei sucked in an involuntary breath, as without warning, memory after memory began to wash over her mind in happy, blissful abandon.
Minako smiling at her. Minako laughing at some silly something she had said. Minako pouting, her eyes beseeching her for some small favor or other. Minako's eyes raking over her in longing. Minako's head thrown back, her body arching into her own at the very height of passion. Minako's face, showing all the love and devotion she would ever need in this life or any other...
The next thing Rei became aware of was fingers beginning to softly caress her side, just before they moved up onto her tummy. Shaking her head to help clear it, Rei looked down to see the well remembered signs of her partner’s rise to wakefulness.
First, there was the gentle frown, followed in short order by the tiny crease that appeared between her delicate eyebrows and the baby yawn that always ended in a squeak. Next came the flexing and unflexing of her fingers, which would be followed by the opening of her eyes.
And there they were. Smiling up at her.
'Gods... she is so beautiful!' the priestess thought, totally enraptured by the vision in her arms.
To be honest, Rei lost all track of time as they lay together, lost as she was in the depths of Minako's eyes. Basking in the glow of each other's presence, the world outside their room just fell away, their own private world becoming all either of them needed or wanted.
(if you don't feel ANYTHING from this, you are completely insensitive.)
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"It's okay, Minako," she said, trying to calm the obviously upset young woman. "I really didn't mind, and…"
"No, it's not okay!" Minako insisted. "First, I begged you to stay with me, and then I assaulted you while you were unable to defend yourself!"
"It wasn't like that!" Rei said, a bit miffed at the implication that she had been such a defenseless victim. "I'm the one that decided to stay, after all. Nobody forced me to!"
"That's true," Minako conceded. "You stayed out of the kindness of your heart, and then I just... I..."
"You just... what?" Rei asked, burning with curiosity despite herself.
"Well, I… that is, I just…" Minako stuttered, trying the get beyond her own embarrassment. "Well, you know," she finally blurted out. "You were there too!"
Mildly amused, Rei said, "Minako, unless you remember something I don't, nothing happened."
Outraged, Minako exclaimed, "What do you mean, 'nothing happened?’ I woke up in your arms this morning, didn't I? My hand was under your shirt, and... and..."
"And nothing happened," Rei assured her with a dark grin.
"How can you be so sure!" the idol demanded.
"Think about it, Minako," the priestess insisted. "Do you actually remember anything happening beyond that?" Rei watched as Minako paused and reviewed what had happened, adding, "If it helps, the next thing I remember is you opening your eyes and smiling at me."
Slowly, Minako nodded her head. "That's the last I remember too," she confirmed. "But are you sure nothing happened before that?" she asked, still concerned.
"Yes, Minako," she promised, nodding her head firmly. "I'm positive. Nothing happened. Would you like to know why I'm so sure?" she asked solemnly.
"Yes," Minako said, needing to believe the truth of Rei's words.
"Because I'm absolutely certain there is no way in heaven or on earth that I could have made love with you last night and not remembered every single moment of it," she stated simply, reaching across the seat to take Minako's hand in hers.
(I completely concur with Rei's reasoning. There's no way in all dimensions and universes that one can make love with the child of Love and Beauty and NOT remember a single thing about it. XD)
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"Minako?"
"Hmm?" the idol said, turning her head to look at Rei.
"When you first woke up this morning, what did you feel?"
Caught off-guard, Minako hesitated. "I... I felt," she began, struggling a bit with her thoughts and emotions.
"What?" Rei asked again, curiously. Needing to know the answer.
"Complete," Minako whispered softly.
The rain that had been pounding the car stopped abruptly as they entered the parking garage, leaving an almost solid silence in its wake as the force of Minako's single word impacted on both of them.
Turning to Rei, Minako's eyes begged for answers of their own. "Did you feel anything, Rei? Anything at all?" she asked.
Faltering at the not completely unexpected question, Rei frowned and honestly thought about it.
What had she felt?
Even as she started to contemplate the jumble of emotions she had experienced when she'd first realized the situation she was in, the answer came to her without hesitation, and she felt the truth of it in her heart.
"Loved," she said simply, looking up at Minako. "For the first time since my mother died," she added. "Truly loved."
Entwining their fingers, Minako smiled as she felt the warm strength of Rei's hand holding her own in firm, yet gentle comfort. She would be alright. It no longer seemed to matter quite so much what the doctor might say or do, or what tests she may have to endure.
As long as they faced it together, she knew, in the end, she would be alright.
(...................*sobs quietly in a corner*)
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And that's it for now. Because the story still isn't finished, so I'm eagerly waiting for more.
I have some things in common with Rei. She lost her mom, but at least my dad isn't an asshole like hers is. But we aren't very close to our fathers still.
I wish one day I could say the same thing as her. "Loved. For the first time since my mother died. Truly loved." Maybe one day I can feel the same way too.
Sigh. I love this pairing. I love that particular fic because Sailor Doc is a genius at this. Never mind. Now I just sound like an idiot. Sigh.
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